I wanted to be / a girl who always wore a necklace / something to touch / something to feel inside / instead I found a new orchid / something to touch something that needs me
like I need the:
fresh forsythia bushes lining the pavements / a blue summer rain
feel of our bodies
making love with the windows open
luck to be able to have:
a morning in a quiet room
coolness of silver wrapped on these fingers
softer fatter flesh than my younger self could ever wonder
when she lived in the pink room
slept on a floor and wooden pallets felt rich like,
the hedge-hidden house with an orange couch
the wobbly cat following her into the big room
where
I wanted to be / an insect wing on the windowsill / a mourning dove wandering the sky / leftover chipped nail polish on the duvet / a ceramic water basin / something to fill yet —
but now i get
to kiss the shoulder of the next time
translucent and fast
Boston + Somerville, 2025
Hello! I wrote this after several really lovely days off earlier this week. A and I went to the plant store, saw the Edvard Munch exhibit at the Harvard Art Museum (if you’re local, please go!), and hung out a lot with his family. I’ve gotta go to work in literally fifteen minutes, but I wanted to finish this poem and send it into the digital ether before I am back on the capitalist grind. Like always, thank you for joining me here.
I started to rewatch season one of Sex and the City, one of my all time favorite comfort shows, but I’m really enjoying watching it for the early styling of the clothes. I love how old tv shows dressed their characters in everyday clothing. Today, tv + film costuming feels overreached away from reality, making characters less relatable. I love how the minimalist nature of SATC season one is still timeless and chic today.
I’m seeing Yukimi and Lucy Dacus this weekend, which I am so hyped about! Yukimi is a longtime creative inspiration of mine, especially with her work on Little Dragon. I haven’t listened in full to either of Yukimi or Dacus’ new work that they are touring — so I think it’ll be fun to experience new songs for the first time live.
I’m also super into the newest Mamalarky album, Hex Key, especially the song Broken Bones.
Lastly, I am reading the winner of last year’s Booker Prize, Orbital by Samantha Harvey, which has some of the most beautiful prose I’ve ever read. It’s already shaping up to be one the best reads I’ve done so far.
Lots o’ love —
Gabo <3